Tuesday, May 01, 2007

she quietly wept..

I feel so disappointed.
firstly, my father claims that I studied all day a bullshit,
and he wasn't happy from his tone of voice.
secondly, work's compiling up like mad.
and I was doing my work the whole day even though it was a public holiday!

maybe I am,
a bullshit.

INSECURITIES.
i thought it would never hit me.
but even the happiest woman on earth would definitely have.
I was talking to huns a few days ago on msn,
and the question he asked struck me,
"Am I happy?"
I replied,"yes"
but I know I've asked myself that question many times.
until now, I,myself, really can't come up with the answer.
Yes,at times.
but there are times.NOT.

I was studying out today at the airport,
and I saw many couples holding hands,
being lovey dovey and all.
and it kinda reminded me of tim's question.
and I wonder are they truely happy or was it just that moment?

boxun called today.
somehow I know it's just a trivial matter,
and on normal circumstances like this,
i would just dismiss the whole entire incident.
but I felt really insecure to whatever he said,
and until now,it still lingers.
it constantly pricks me every minute,every second.

maybe I've to resign to fate that I've such eccentric mood,
where it changes just like the wind.
or am I just being oversensitive.

When you truely love that someone,
you want to keep him by your side forever,
but yet you feel that you're just not important to him.
You feel that you belong to his life for only once a week, and the cycle continues..

I just feel extremely sad.

Comments

he means a lot to you.
that I'm sure =S

it's in nature.
boys aren't girls.
they don't show it.
they assume you know it.

# posted by

Anonymous : 10:42 PM

ARE YOU PSYCHO?!

4 DEODERANTS AT ONE SHOT.

DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU SMELL LIKE A RAT?!

YOU'RE CRAZY!

your precious loves you lar,
maybe you should just tell him.
don't make him worry for you.
4 deoderants at a time,
is crazy!

# posted by

Anonymous : 11:16 PM

I think sometimes I smell worse than a rat.

# posted by

Alicia : 7:49 PM

How long have you ignore God?

What is more important now is your studies.. and you're a christian right?! don't let lies hurt you or control you, whatever people say, might not be them who said, but its all from satan. whatever things that is from the world doesn't belong to us.
you seems have so much doubt in what so do or which way to continue your jorney, ask Jesus. Isn't He the Lord? whatever He says just do it.. Do your quiet time daily and pray, listen to what God has to say..i am sure He would not want these things to happen too..

ok, you might love that guy sososo much. everyone will have this experience one day. there is nothin wrong in likin a guy actually but at least you know the limit ya?
startin a realationship means you are deciding whether to marry that guy anot. ask yourself are you serious? do you want to marry him? or its just lust at 1st sight? think further...

sorry that i comment too much ya x)
so long nv come to your blog le.

# posted by

Anonymous : 5:25 PM

you're?

I know my emotions has been taking over me.
I just need to work things out.
thanks for your comment.

# posted by

Alicia : 9:52 PM