Saturday, February 24, 2007
she quietly wept..
you know,it really does matter who you hang out with sometimes.
i love to hang out with plump people,
or people fatter than me.
okay no offence.
seriously,it makes me feel more confident of myself,
at least i'm thinner than them.
and there would be no such words like sinful indulgence,on a diet,and the most clique word: FAT in my dictionary.
you see why i love to hang out with bimb.
oh my.my bad.i'm such a sucker at times really.
please forgive me.
and the fat tummy that now seemed too obvious,
is seriously not flattering at all.
and the eye bags and dark rings that seemed like they have been there like forever,
is sometimes too much to bear.
and sleeping for hours and hours,
12hours straight is not going to make them go away.
they only bring headaches and headaches.
panadols.panadols.where are you?
can you see why my life is such a bore?
when too much of EVERYTHING,
brings headaches and more stoning.
too much tv,too much ps,too much stoning,too much binge-ing or whatever there is such word.
i seriously need to do exercise.really.
i gained a 4 bloody fking kgs ever since the cny started.
i'm disgustingly fat now.
see why cny is evil?see why every girl hates cny even though there's lots of ang paos?
i'm one.
and bimb claimes that i'm being dramatic,
when i told her i gained 4 fking kgs ever since cny started.
oh well,maybe now because we're both fat!
evil bak-kwa.
i'm never gonna touch bak-kwa till maybe next year.
oh well,i only eat it once a year.too much of "i'm not gonna touch bak-kwa"
NOOOO!!!THE BIG F.A.T WORD IS KILLING ME!
sorry,please blame it on my hormones.
it's emo day.haha.the big M is coming.
and I'm so not looking forward to it.
unstable hormones.crazy moods.eccentric behaviour.
i just shouted at my sister,because she was speaking too loudly.
I'm like a dormant volcano,I can explode anytime without warning.
and when this happens,
i'll get really upset,angry and cold at the same time if things don't get my way.=(
how amazing,i can feel three feelings at a time.
issn't it so interesting?=)
I know I should be controlling those emotions and not them consuming me all the time,
but i'm such a loser really.everytime.
i let those emotions take over me and its game over.
THE BIG M.DEFINITELY SOMETHING EVERY BOYFRIEND SHOULD TAKE NOTE OF.
ESPECIALLY THE WARNINGS.
but i guess i'm different sometimes.
who knows,I'll explode anytime.
and the person nearest to me....
oh well i'll leave the rest to your imagination.
and I'm NOT acting crazy,I am crazy sometimes like now.
I can't even complete a coherent sentence of english when i was talking to dee on the phone.
here is how the convo went about.
aliciadee
hello?
hey!you wanna go shopping or hang out soon at town next week?!
uh?huh?
you wanna go out shopping next week?!
erm.*pause for a long time*
*meanwhile* hello??hello?
and after what seemed like forever she claims,she just hung up.
and I actually said wth.after a whole 5 seconds.
i know i'm quite slow in processing things,sometimes.
anyway,sorry dee,
I was watching a soccer match,
you know when the boys hold authority of the remote control,
you have no choice but to sit with them and watch.
yeah,and i was eating,and listening.
uh.so I wasn't pretty much paying attention.okayokay,mybad.mybad.
we shall go out soon,
where's gorgeous?
I'VE YET TO SEE HIM AND HE HAS TO PASS MY INSPECTION TEST,
AND GO ON PROBATION,
BEFORE YOU ACTUALLY SAY YES TO YOUR HAPPINESS OKAYS?
love you.=)
sorry that you have to read a whole lot of bullshit.
: 2:17 PM