Friday, April 06, 2007

she quietly wept..

I'm trying so terribly hard to make the best out of my non-school days,
enjoying and studying at the same time.
sounds very contradicting but this is how the way it is.
Today,a friend told me "Change your mindset,take studying as an enjoying activity in your daily life."
Sure.
so I was thinking for almost the whole entire day, studying=FUN?
It doesn't sound right and logical to me,but I'll just heed his advice.
STUDYING=FUN.

seriously,I'm such a bullshit.
STUDYING,TO ME,CAN NEVER BE CONSIDERED AS FUN.
but still,I'm trying to instill that bullshit in my head.

I'm sorry I haven't been updating regularly,
too much work to do,
and by the time I reach home from school,
I will be too drained to do anything but to eat and sleep.

By the way,Praise God,that my grandmother's operation was a success.
I've been praying and my aunties and cousins too,ever since she was told that she had to undergo operation.
It's just that she lost too much blood,and that she had to undergo blood transfusion.
the saddest thing is that she needed at least 3 of those blood bags or whatever its called.
But,I'm glad she's okay and fine now.

and it's just so sad as well that one non-school day has yet passed,
and I left with the weekends to study and enjoy at the same time-.-
I dread going to school sometimes.
I miss shopping terribly,
I want shoes and icecream.
I want gelare =(

I'm seriously gaining weight,and this time I'm dead serious.
my tummy had gotten to a size so big that I can no longer see my toes.
okay,sorry lah,I'm overly exaggerating.
It's just too disgusting that it makes me want to exercise more.
I can't stand my classmates!
they are so freaking skinny,
and all they eat for lunch is POCKY STRAWBERRY,OFCOURSE.
and HELLO PANDA.
It sucks because I'm eating them too,plus the main dish I eat everyday.

and apart from growing fatter,
I'm getting uglier.
seriously,this time no exaggeration lah.
I have breakouts and the darn pimple at the same spot has been there for a week!
I've been deprived of sleep.deprived from a lot of sleep.
I should post a recent picture of myself and allow people to find my pimple and look at the terrible state of me,
with the dark obvious ugly eye bags that has been haunting me since O levels ended.
AND with school work compiling,
the eye bags are even more obvious.
When usually I couldn't really see my eye bags,
now I see them nice and clear on my face.

I wanna watch ninja turtles.
boo hoo.Everybody watched already,all except me.
anybody,maybe on a saturday night if possible?
damn sad lah.=(

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