Friday, December 01, 2006
she quietly wept..
When a good friend of mine experience the same aftermath as I do.
When I want so badly to help her stop the pain,
it makes me think on how guys can be such jerks
when the girls should be the one doing the dirty job.
I do not know how to say this.
Me myself haven't really gotten over him.
I can't get myself telling her that she has to get over him.
Its hard,but we have to go through.
Frankly speaking,its good seeing him again.
I believe by seeing him makes me feel more open whenever it comes when I have to see him again.
I saw him at pool today,
and manda even smsed me that he was there.
A part of me wanted to see him badly,
yes I still miss him,
I'm not gonna lie to myself anymore.
I love him.I still do.
but perhaps seeing him from afar is good enough.
I'm not expecting anything from him
even though when sometimes loneliness sat.
I've no idea what to tell her.
and at least you've got the reason why you guys broke up,
and besides he's a cheater,
an asshole.
I've got the reason why my relationship failed,
but until now I don't really understand.
I don't understand what's he's thinking.
I don't understand him at all.
it hurts like a bitch but its a fact.
FACE IT.
I'm not as strong as you could think,
but holding back your tears is a good sign to me,
because I took such a long time to stop crying and to stop blaming myself for everything.
initially,I was even contemplating on whether I should get another bitch to take over his place,
but no,it was a foolish thought
and needless to say,childish.
I'm sorry for the long post.
I'm feeling really emo,
when my good friend's facing such a crisis,
that is oh so similar.
I guess all I could do was to stay near,
and that we both have shoulders to lean on.
