Friday, November 24, 2006
she quietly wept..
Home seemed so far away,
when I walked home alone tonight.
I guessed he would be there.
but I wasn't expecting it so soon.
I almost spilt coffee,when I first walked in.
I wasnt anticipating anything.
but it seemed as if something overcame me.
and I felt as if there was something suffocating me.
If only I could vanish from the ends of the earth,
I wished.
When we pretend as if we never knew each other,
when I 've realised I never really got over you,
and when I even lost the courage to look at you.
I wished I never went there,
then perhaps my presence wouldn't make ourselves so awkward.
However,
a part of me knows you're coping well,
and of course,
I feel happy for you.
And you do look good.
Never mind about the part that I looked so pathetic,
I was afraid.
In fact,I was afraid I would crumble again in front of your eyes.
I did my best to pretend that you're not there.
kill me.kill me.kill me.
please kill me,then I wouldn't have to face this cruel reality.
