Friday, September 29, 2006
she quietly wept..
Decided to post another entry.
Feeling a little down and disturbed.
I dug up my journal dating back from sec 1
and started reading it.
I was stunned when I actually saw kenneth's name.
it made me feel uneasy again.
I don't know why.
and besides,I saw his friend today.
I feel uneasy.
and lost.
and I'm starting to feel it once again after a few days.
These past few weeks were a torture.
I didnt want to go through.
but I had.
I want so badly to break no contact.
but, again,
I held back.
Those words just wont stop ringing.
No matter how hard is it going to be,
I'll respect what he wants and how he feels.
If only he knew I love him.
If only I could step back and walk away,
If only I could save myself from this misery,
If only I could stop loving him.
I'll do anything.
