Friday, April 28, 2006

she quietly wept..

it doesnt matter if i'm A or B.
at least i've got a big A.
and a small B.
that's pretty much the same compared to everyone...
by the way, being overly "big"
is considered "wierd"..

anyway.
it has been a stressful week.
I'm just a stupid stubborn spoiled brat.
and no matter what, you can't change that.
I've been mugging for weeks.
however apparently there's like tons and tons of work to do.
and memorise.
I know I can do it.
but i'm lacking the drive.

I'm longing for a break.
"Today will be the last day before i do a crash course..."
but that never happens.
It goes on for days. and for weeks.
and finally the mid terms are approaching.
that's the motivation i have.

and i hate it when people discourage me.
especially my loved ones.
to think i can pour out my worries to someone..
expecting a positive approach..
but..
nvm.you probably sort of got the answer.
i shall add this to my "MAJOR TURN OFFS" list.
BUT their words are not going to bring me down.
I admit that it's very hurting but
to think of it,
perhaps i'm really a spoiled brat,
who can't take constructive insults..
I guess it's just part and parcel of life.

anyway bio practical was -sort of easier-
but i'm not saying that i'll get a sure distinction for it.
but i put in my best.
and whatever the outcome is,
whether is it positive or negative,
I'll take it that it's the best I can go.
and there will be no doubts about it.

school never has been good.
I feel like running away, the furthest I can go.
away from here.away from this shite.
but I'm in an enclosed room,facing four walls.
and i can go no where.
to make things worse, I'm claustrophobic.

i hate school.

For the first time, I missed my daddy more than my boyfriend.

I can live without my boyfriend.
but i can't live without my daddy.
the feeling of missing my daddy is completely different from what I feel when I miss my boyfriend.
and that feeling is so much different..









if only our feelings were mutual,
things would work out so much better....

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