Monday, February 13, 2006
she quietly wept..
I wouldnt say anything to him.
but I miss him so much.
tomorrow's Valentine's Day.
everybody's asking me what i'm getting him...
Although he's still with me.
it seems that he's far far away.
the feeling of me losing him again..
is so unbearable.
the days without him were like killing me.
that's how much I love him.
I just wonder whether I am as important to him....
I guess I never love someone as much as him.
except my lord and saviour.
No words can describe how much I love him.
and I'm just praying everyday that he wont leave me.
But if he ever does.
there's really nothing I can do.
but blame myself for loving him too much.
I'm trying so hard to compromise.
I'm trying so hard to be his perfect girlfriend.
I'm putting aside my pms.
just to not make him stressed or whatever.
I'm afraid of him.
and sometimes I cry to myself why things turn out like that.
it hurts so much.
so whenever i think of it..
my bible cheers me up. =]
he's my strength.^^
