Sunday, February 05, 2006
she quietly wept..
I came home with a nasty attitude.
screamed at my sister.
yeah.SCREAMED.
I donno whats gotten in me.
but I'm angry at something
which I don't even know.
I'm afraid of going to school.
I started cursing my form teacher.
cause she's a bloody bitch.
my school friends...
I'm starting to hate all of them.
my boyfriend?
he's always not there when I needed him.
he'll only come to me when he needs me.
or else i guess he's just somewhere out there.
couldnt really care much where is he...
or else it's just called "invading too much of his privacy"
tim?
he's just like an imaginary friend.
my family members cant stop nagging.
life is so uninteresting.
but the power of God is so powerful...
I guess it's the only thing that keeps me going..
I'm starting to really hate myself..
the reasons why i hate myself:
1.perhaps i'm such a bitch just like what everyone said.
Everyone says I'm an arrogant stuck up bitch.
like wth.
2.dumb.and of course stupid.
Tell me..since when did i even get a good grade...
3.for being such an asshole.
Scaring people off by saying really hurting things like
"I don't wanna make friends with you cause I think you're bad"
4.for being a spoiled rich brat.
Am i even rich?
5. for having a dao face and xia lan look.
I cant help it if I'm really angry..that's just too bad.
6.Whatever bad things you can name.
I just suddenly feel the urge of just talking nonsense.
I feel like crying.
but I have no idea why am i crying for?
I wake up in the middle of the night.
not able to sleep later on.
and its been on for like so long.
And I cant stand my form teacher.
can she just shut up.
i hate her.
i hate everybody.I'm such a sucker.
I'm just a depressed person.and i HATE to do things that I dont like.
and my life is just screwed.
don't talk to me.
