Wednesday, January 18, 2006
she quietly wept..
so I went out with him yesterday for dinner.
Before that.
I prayed for strength.
and I guessed God was with me all along.
when I saw him.
i felt like crying.
but I guess I just don't want him to see my weaknesses.
and I guess it's God's strength that brought me through that night.
I don't know whether that hug or that peck on his lips was a mistake.
but i guess I was just bhb.
pushing myself to someone who might not even accept me.
and that makes me like a slut.
well.i guess i am one.
haha.
I really dunno what is he thinking.
I really want to know what is he thinking.
i want to know.
whether he wants a clean break off or he still wants me..
I'm still waiting...
