Wednesday, January 25, 2006
she quietly wept..
frankly speaking.
i kinda lost the faith.
i kinda lost the trust.
and a bit of love for him.
I guess its because I've been hurt before.
and it's not the same way as I felt when jie jun and I broke up.
i must admit that was a fling.
haha.
I'm still scared.
and no matter what.
that feeling wont go away.
I've to be prepared for the worst.
maybe one day when I wake up.
everything's over again.
I don't want to face the days when I felt so alone.
and that he became a part of my life.
the days were so lonely.
and I thought I've lost him forever.
no one understands how I feel.
but I've doubts.
doubts that he'll just walk away like that.
again.
and I'm not going to trust anyone that much.
not anymore.
especially a guy.
especially a guy whom i love so dearly..
i guess that breakup..
was a lesson.
I've learnt to be more independent.
and to not trust people easily.
and that my friends are the most important compared to him..
but still he means so much to me.
