Monday, October 31, 2005

she quietly wept..

i'm trying so hard to hold back the tears..
the tears i've been trying to hold back these few days..
even on the way back home..
I'm still trying..

I've may have talked to my parents..
either on the phone..or at home..
face to face..
but no eye contact.
no nothing.
I donno how to face them..
and I don't want to know how to face them..

and so I was at home eating instant noodles..
while the whole family goes out for dinner..
sad life eh?
yeah.
I guess so.

It's like being in a dark room.
a pitch-dark room..
where you can't see anything..
and you dunno what's ahead of you..
the time you know there's something obstructing...
you feel the pain..
tt's what I'm experiencing now.

worse still..
i dunno how to face even my boyfriend..
i know i've been unreasonable..
i know i'm not a very good girlfriend..
in fact..a girlfriend who's always angry with you...
but I still love you so much..
and it hurts me so so badly today..
i felt so much of giving up..
everything..
i always thought tomorrow would be a better day..
but then..
it makes me more afraid of tomorrow..
i dunno what's going to happen tomorrow..
but
tommorow's our 8th month dear..
i hope you still remember..

Comments Post a Comment