Saturday, March 12, 2005

she quietly wept..

hurt..super hurt today.Talked to him today..almost make me cry..I rather not know..I didnt have the mood today..to do anything...just put on lip gloss..left the room...and stayed in the toilet..and cry..so that's the way he's talking to me now..fine.That kind of words can actually come out from his mouth..incredible..
at the end of the day.I'm still hurt.hurt not because i still like him.hurt because i know he never liked me before?hah..im actually so dumb.ahh...how dumb can i be..ARGHH..I'm so dumb..
and i think he's super dumb too.after saying that to me,he actually told me that he is sorry and he didnt mean his words..i feel like asking him to f-ing hell shut up.but obviously i was nice to just say shut up..and he think its funny-.-" what a guy.
never mind..i'm in a rather good mood today..ah...i'm in a good mood these few days..so never mind..i wont insult him.i wont curse him..Just want to tell that asshole out there..."don't make me give up on you.."
cause i still care..

went out the whole day..wore that sickening shoes.not going to wear them ANYMORE.legs hurt...SO VERY MUCH..sometimes i wonder how can people actually wear those ultra high heels..won't they fall?haha.ok maybe i don't know how to wear...so i dun care..wear shoes..haha.its flat...haha wont fall..wont fall...
saw dewei...with this guy..he's so shocked to see me..dunno why...maybe that guy is his boyfriend ah..some more ask me who am i with..-.-"haha.obviously i say no one..cause i was with no one?stupid question..

tmr go church..feel so bad for lying..never mind..i'll promise not to lie anymore..feel so bad..feel so guilty lying to my own boyfriend?argh..feel super guilty..but then later tell him i going out with some other friends,he not happy..so better to lie RIGHT?never mind..finish church tmr at 3...change my tuition to 3.30(: don't stay back..don't stay back..haha...

tired.will start studying at 9.30.so not go bathe.eat and then start studying at 9.30..but haha..will end up studying at 10..study till 12?wake up at 8.study till 11.go bathe.go church.then go tuition...that's just a typical sunday(:

HOLIDAYS NEXT WEEK!yays!study..study..study...awww..):

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