Friday, March 04, 2005

she quietly wept..

Decided to blog today.cause i felt super mean to my friends today.Gave attitude to jacqueline and Michelle..argh..today damn bad mood lahx.A maths= 50.7% E maths=69.1%
crap sial.can jump down the building..drown myself in the toilet and DIE!!!!!crap.Think I'm really super dumb after all.Simple to say,self esteem is super low..Sometimes I really lurve myself.And sometimes I really hate myself..Hate myself for getting such low marks for maths and physics.Lurve myself for performing well.haha."I am so proud of you today.."haha.Haven heard that sentence for a very very long time..suddenly the voice starting coming back.....
Ah..im crapping as usual..haha.Had el today..i've been a really bad gurl today...talk to my dear in school.didnt play netball with paveena,mona and farhani..haha.didnt know where charmaine went..haha.Talk so much..talk more than half and hour..go back creative room talk somemore..mastura was there...crap..then she asked me not to use my phone..but i still use..haha.i dun care lahx..Then i told him about timothy and stuffs...blahxblahx..told him that boontip supported him and not timothy..blah blah..then told him that tim likes me..haha..and then he told me he was hurt..haha.guess he's jealous..think he lurves me too much...nvm thats not a bad thing..I lurve like crazy too.haha.still yet to talk to him later at 11.crap.sacriface my sleeping time and talk to him..see im such a good girlfriend right...hopes he appreciate..haha.got chinese tuition tmr.haven studied ting xie.I'm dead again!hahx.shou ce left at her house..so heck..crap im going to study a maths,e maths,physics,bio,chem.Thats all for today.Do all those in my book..and then proceed to tys..hopefully i can get a 1 for o levels.for my sciences.esp bio and chem..physics heck lahx..but still study lahx..must study very hard lahx..if i want to get 10-14 for O's.Must study..but at the end..slack like now like that..haha..Im such a great slacker..lalalalala...i dun care.I'm going to study in about 15 mins time..so ya be a good girl and study..hmm still dunno whether i can go out with him on sunday..aiya i dun feel like going lahx..with all his friends..wa laux...i somemore dunno them one..very sian..then they're so going to suan him like crazy...and then i will be some extra over there..haix..think better don't go lahx.very lazy sial..got church in the morning and afternoon..and then have dinner with them at night..damn tired sial..the next day somemore got school lahx..hmmm must think properly want to go anot..haha.crap..we'll see how about it..haha.okayx..heck.Im going to study now..and be a good girl..haha.

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