Monday, November 29, 2004
she quietly wept..
I think I should stop eating chocolates for a while..I better watch my diet.I dun want to die of diabeties one day..hahs.Oh god,I just hate the flu and the pain i have went through after my tuition..went home and sleep...dreamt of steven...michelle..gerald?Hmm wierd..funny dreams..hahs.I dreamt I was with michelle and then we were walking down the stairs..and then out of the blue,i started calling gerald..and then I remembered we were at tampines ave 3?Anyway is there such a place?I dunno also..hahs..then we were kind of lost..dunno how we ended up at that place...hahs..then yesterday night..I remembered dreaming I was out with coconut and then suddenly he dissappeared?hahs..and then i saw timothy?and then I forgot.hahs..stupid dream..hahs.Woke up with a sharp pain..was 9.45am..damn late..hahs.Thought of not going to tuition but later..hahs..just go..came back with a flu..i hate this..hahs..this time is not vomitting can..suppose to get used to the jab anw..it will be scary if I really got diabeties..I will die.Injections every day..on medications..yucks..I just took a jab and then its causing so much pain..ok maybe a little..hahs..my father has mild diabeties also..and hes eating all those healthy food..oh yucks..I cant imagine myself eating healthy stuffs..ARGH..yesterday thanks to timothy goh..I really hate yoo can..I was half dead lar..purposely send me the files when I want to go..hahs..realised was so tired yesterday because i was on medication..drowsy..hahs.At the end....i said bye and then i left..file haven finish d/l yet..
And ya I can tell you his house is in a mess..When his parents come back..Hes going to be so dead..Went to his house hmm a couple of days ago..eh..o levels finished already right..why the books still all over the floor one?Might as well throw them away or something?Clothes...can u like bring them for laundry service..or better still wash them yourself?I so want to kill you can..
Was having tuition today..call me for what?hahs..sorry I was having a terrible headache this afternoon..I slept..hahs.Im still having slight headache now..i'll watch the movie with you another day yeah..Anyway what's the sudden urge of asking me out?hahs..must be miss me right..I know..hahs.I feel so loved..hahs..
I have tuition tomorrow at 10..oh shit..should do a maths or physics?Ah...dun feel like doing..dun feel like going..might as well stay at home watch movie...sleep..hahs.Oh ya was watching finding nemo and twin effects..and edision chen..hes so cute..hahs.
I just suddenly thought of Boontip..prayed..reflect on what I did today.So I thought.. Lots of things happened this year..If your here now,I want to tell yoo I'm not angry anymore..I dun exactly know what happened?but..I'll forgive and forget..hahs..That time during the exams..hahs..I was siao lar..basically because I fought with Kenneth..and then suddenly he called me and say hes coming back for his O's?To think of the past..two years back?hmm there was me you dewei meiwen boat...Dewei left for Shuxian and group..because of you wanting to be friends with Andre again?I wasnt really happy..At that time I didnt know who was right..but at the end,I decided to be your friend again..and then this year boat went back to thailand..andre decided to be with yiwei they all..left me and meiwen..but then along the way..you got to know many many friends eh?You came to know Ade Leslie Steven..I dunno whos leslie and steven...but soon got to know them through you..Leslie..I seriously got nothing to talk to him..sometimes I really feel like slapping his face..i only talked to him about christian music and songs..thats all..steven wasnt that close..but after he had problems with ade..became quite close to him..at first,he was in a state of depression..wanting to die and stuffs...during the exams..he even talked to me over the phone about ade and stuffs..and then I dunno what happened betweeen you and him..dun wish to know anyway..later you came to know ruth and huiyan..and I was like left out?Actually..I was really sad about it..Jealousy..someone "stole" my best friend away from me..But I guess its steven whos the one who was there for me..it was kenneth whos the one who talked to me on the phone..It was timothy whos the one who comes up with stupid stuffs..although he always bully me..-.-"I suppose I managed to get up and got on with life..it took me quite some time..and it was during the exam period..I used to hate Huiyan and Ruth..but then not now..Im not angry with huiyan and no,I dun hate her anymore..hahs.Now she,meiwen are not close to you anymore..thats because they heard your been talking bad about them behind their backs..and because of you and ruth being so close..huiyan and ruth fought?I and you fought?Hmm I thought of that as my childishness,selfishness and jealousy..You have the right to make friends.You have the right not to be friends with me anymore..But I suppose you ask me out that day..just to clarify some stuffs..yeah..I was there..with steven..at burger king..I dunno whether wad meiwen and huiyan say is true..but I dun want to know the truth anymore..I just want you to know that I will always be your friend..hahs(:see im so nice..At least I know I have Steven with me..I have the right to make friends too..hahs..Now whenever meiwen goes out with huiyan and ruth..she will ask me along..but I wont go..wont go not because I still hate themm..Wont go out with them means I dun want to be close to them..I have the right to choose my friends right?I think thats what you said to me..Yeah..maybe I should be the one saying sorry as well..giving you attitude..hahs..I admit during that period of time..I was in a bad mood..and that period of time was the time I actually broke up with kenneth..hmm how many times?I dun quite remember..hahs..I remembered Nabihan's words..that time i was crying can..theres so many ice creams to choose..hahs..theres not only one flavour..life still has to go on without kenneth..hahs..anw he left sg already..so nvm lar..hahs..anw..signing off..
